D&C 75:27
"Let them ask and they shall receive, knock and it shall be opened unto them, and be made known from on high, even by the Comforter, wither they should go."
It has been a rough week. Nothing crazy or really awful happened, just too many little things that seemed to get under my skin. Whether it was the stormy weather, Ian and I pushing each others buttons, the long hours at work or the million other things I could list I just didn't know what was going on.
At work on Tuesday I was having a particularly hard day and wasn't taking it well. One of those days where you want to either punch someone or crawl back into bed. Maybe both. By mid afternoon I was getting frustrated with patients, already thinking about all the things I had to do when I got home late that night...etc etc. I began to get discouraged and started to wonder if I was doing anything right. It sure didn't feel like it.
Then, I stopped thinking about my pity story and asked my self "What? What is SO bad?" Immediately I had overwhelming thoughts of all the blessings I have in my life. I have a handsome supportive husband who loves me deeply and is working on taking me to the temple with him. Ian and I are active in the gospel and have never been happier. I have the most incredible family I could ever ask for. Our Temple prep. class has been an incredible experience. I have lost 19 lbs. (and counting!) Ian is greatly succeeding in his training. We are completely provided for. I know that I have a Father in Heaven who loves me, and watches over me every minuscule second of my life. I have a savior who died for me, who sacrificed everything so that I may return to live with him and my Father in Heaven again.
And as I sat there in the middle of an optometrist's office staring out the window I felt the presence of someone who loves me very, very much. My back got warm, and tingly. The background noise disappeared. I felt as if someone was standing directly behind my chair in a protective sort of way. There was a moment of indescribable peace that seemed to say "I understand, and you are doing a good job."
Then that feeling of indescribable peace was filled with indescribable joy.
This morning I woke up with mixed feelings about going to church. Ian is at work because of the Air Show, the roads are crazy with traffic, most of the ward was going to be gone because of the Air Show, why go? I have learned that when I start to feel this way it's because there is something I need to do, hear, or say that day in church.
Low and behold, both of the lessons in Temple Prep. and in Relief Society were on the blessings of going to the Temple! It put my mind right back where it needed to be, and I realized once again the importance of promptings from the Holy Ghost. I sat through church with a small grin on my face and thought "Yeah, Shayna, you listened and you did the right thing. You needed to be here, and you feel so much better."
Anyway I had a prompting to share my little story this week, I felt that it may help someone in the days or weeks to come :)
Oh, and Happy Mother's Day to all you wonderful women out there!
